I was there every day, hour, minute, and second. I recall
the way I observed myself in the mirror, as the tears amplified. I strived to conceal
the emotions even from myself because I no longer wanted to acknowledge them.
I would have instances that seemed tolerable. Though, I could find myself
slowly slipping back into dullness with no control. I was vanishing back into
the person I knew I need not be. I couldn't stop it, no matter how hard I
tried, so I stopped trying. All I could do was watch and wish the feeling would
go away. Though, it stayed, I could hear a dark laugh in the back of my head.
It stayed longer than I ever thought it would. I was not sure how to counter it,
or if I ever could. I remember attempting to feel something, anything, but I
had already shut it off, my compassion. It was almost impossible to turn back
on once it had crooked itself off. I would never sense myself turn it off, but
I knew when it was I could sense it after it set in. The concern and kindness
just seemed to fade away into something that was just coldness. I couldn’t stop
it; it was just there.
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Your writing is profound. Your eyes are beautiful, so, clearly, is what is behind them.
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